Well hello there

I'm glad you've found me! Welcome to my blog. I am an abnormal teen though you don"t see it at first. Strange once you do and funny if you know what to look for. I appreciate creepers like no other! Look around and get to know me a little bit :)

Sunday, March 25, 2012


I do not feel the need to survive.

This thought seems darker then it is. There is no need to worry. I am nowhere near hurting myself or others. This is simply my faith. I believe that there is a higher power deciding how our lives play out. 
What lessons we learn, how we learn them. This is the Ancient Greek House of philosophy of Stoicism. A complete and total faith in god. Stoics believe that the realization that everything happens for a reason and is predetermined, and that this belief will rid them of anxiety and general freaking out that plague western society. 


There are 5 types of thoughts to my mind. There are:


I use the food method of grouping because it makes sense.

Raw Thoughts: These thoughts are the thoughts you read on my blog. They are spur of the moment thoughts that come from the heart, filled with the meaning you give to them. They are vital to our survival.
Ego Rating: 0-1

Boiled Thoughts: Thoughts that are in between Raw and Cooked, minor change but still majorly the same
Ego Rating: 2-4

Cooked Thoughts: These thoughts are the thoughts you somewhat think of but that are influenced by the media portrayal of what is cool. There is minor meaning to these thoughts, they are important.
Ego Rating: 3-6

Tempura Thoughts: Artificial thoughts inserted into our consciousnesses by media portrayal of what is socially acceptable. Most often the cause of social downfall or rise.
Ego Rating: 6-10

Dirty thoughts: Thoughts that are so disgusting they simply fill you with revulsion for yourself. Never a good thing.
Ego Rating: 10

Them Or Me?

I went on a school trip over friday night. I have to say, I have a whole new painful perspective about my social solitude. I am just beginning to think that maybe this is partly my fault. I think I should maybe make an effort to branch out. I have this feeling that it would take me away from my current social group. Which isn't making me happy either. Either way, its a bargain. But wait. Maybe the answer is inside me? The cheesy line makes sense. I should try to better myself before I attempt to better the lives of others. Because really, making friends is helping other people to feel good around you and feeling good yourself.
I won't branch out just yet. But maybe I can do something. I should do something. I will do something. I really like the idea of meditating. But to put into practice is a difficult affair. For now, 10-20 minutes a day will be fine. The only problem is, it would take minor sacrifices, which is really annoying. To meditate in the morning would be sacrifice of about 12 minutes of sleep, and to do it before bed would be the sacrifice of 12 minutes of sleep. All in all, I'd lose about 30 minutes of sleep. Is it worth it to lose some sleeping time to better my waking hours? I'll see. Also, I really want to start working out, I found this app called MiCoach. Its an Adidas idea, and it seems to be good. The only problem is, I really don't want to work out. I want to look good. So I'm torturing myself to work out, and criticizing myself every time I step in front of a mirror. But the drive just isn't there. I'm going to try forcing myself to do it, and hopefully the results of a week or two will encourage me to keep doing it. I'm slightly doubtful, but whatever. I'll be fine.

Dont worry, be happy.

Friday, March 16, 2012

A Tidbit of Advice

The agressor is commonly believed to be the cause of the problem. However, contrary to subconscious popular belief, the pacifist who means well may be just as much as fault. However, ignorance is most often the root of the problem.
-Aly Lakhani


I am officially frustrated. I got all regular classes for 9th grade. Apparently my averages didn't meet the requirement.
This is not okay.
So what's my plan? I'm gonna study my butt off.
Now that that's settled. I've had these random blogging ideas. But I didn't seize any of them. I will soon. More later this week!